I get rambly when I'm tired. Am I tired right now? You are absolutely right. I'm about to get stupidly dumb so go ahead and ignore this. This isn't an episode of self-loathing, I tend to enjoy writing analyses on myself.
I remember a few years ago, dA was my thing (back then, I was known as 97osea, which is still up if you wanna check it out). I was much more active, pumping out drawings left and right, meeting sick new people here and there. I guess with the advent of Junior year, I became distant from here (that, and me creating a different account probably had something to do with it). From always logged on, responding to everyone right away, looking through the newest uploads, actually commenting every time I favorited something because the little speech bubble popped up above the user avatar. I even got into the rp scene for a while, but even then it didn't last long. Okay I'm getting psytracked.
I guess what I want to say is, to any followers, especially those who have been with me for a while, I'm sorry. I've become less social here, and never initiate any sort of contact. Suppose it's just how I am, growing up takes its toll on things like this. Not to say that this site isn't for adults or anything, just referring to me. What I once thought was my passion has grown into a realization that what I do is just my hobby. It really sucks knowing this. I'll create something every now and then, but it's got to be the right time, place, and mindset. That doesn't come around for me too often nowadays, you can see in my gallery that there can be months between uploads. Even then it'll probably just be an unfinished sketch, never to be completed. I get pissed off because, damn I have all the time in the world, literally (for now), and I still don't produce anything. While my art style has improved over time, a lot of my old friends are AMAZING now. From doing notebook doodles to fantastic digital art. I am very happy for them.
Adulthood has arrived for me. It's not gonna get any easier for me to do what I enjoy doing. This is just the beginning. Until the day comes where I give up on my hobby, I will post whatever I do. It may be hours, days, weeks or months, but rest assured, it will get here.
Okay I'm done.
Listening to: The Amity Affliction - The Weigh Down